What Would You Call Me?

What would you call me?

What words would you use
Behind closed doors
When I am not
In ear shot?

Do you sing praises
And mirror my affection

Do you speak coldly
And wish in vexation

Or worst of all

Do I not even cross your mind?

Do I exist
Solely in the space
Before your eyes

But hold no ground
In you heart
Or mind?

Am I more than a face
But less than a name

And if so,
Am I simply present?
With no weight of past
Or hope of future?

What would you call me
If asked?

But don’t tell me the answer